For the past few weeks/months I have been in a gray area in my life.
Nothing is clear, nothing is black or white.
It seems that I constantly have periods like this one in my life.
In all areas of my life (family, love, friends, work) at the moment there are things bugging me, keeping me awake at night, bringing tears to my eyes.
I feel like I want to share and I feel that I share too much.
I feel the need to talk, but I need to shut up.
I have to learn how to let go and let things fall into place by themselves, but it is such a hard process.
I have to learn how to stop the what if's.
I have so many questions in my head, so many emotions in my heart.
I don't know how to deal with all of this without hurting myself or others.
I dream about moments of the past.
I dream about moments of the future.
And I seem to be avoiding moments of the present.