Sunday, September 12, 2010

Sunday September 12th Update

Sorry I am late with this one.

It was another big week of pretty much nothing new and same old shit.
I lost a few followers, sorry about my depresssing blog, I will get better one day, soon I hope.

I am glad to tell you I am on my 9th day of the natural products and they make me feel like shit, but yes I am still taking them.

Instead of going to a Psychiatric ER this week I went directly to the Psychiatric hospital. I know I need help and some days scare me so bad. So I will see a psychiatrist very soon (within 2 weeks) and from there I hope to actualy have 'THE PLAN' that will put my life back on track. It was a terrifiying experience to go there, but it is where I need to be treated.

I spent a few days at my parents, because they are very worried for me. I feel so bad to see them so upside down, I regret telling them so many things. I actually feel in prison at their place, I will go back home on Tuesday.

I am trying to let go of the past anger, sadness and pain I lived. I read old diaries and shredded them. I realised that I miss some people so much and that others have hurt me so bad. One guy friend in particular I would like to talk to again, but I dont think it is the best time right now for me to reconnect. It is giving me a goal to get better.

I am now addicted to day time tv: Days of our lives, TheDr's, Doctor Oz, Oprah and DrPhil. I am looking forward to the new House and Grey's natomy.

This week I lost a bit more weight, but I did start walking more often again.
I still dont eat much, but I am working on it. I am having trouble sleeping, which I didnt have till this week.

I am hoping to have good news for you guys next week, I cant wait till the day I tell you, no more attacks, no more tears, back to work and back to dating.

Take care till next week.

Caro :)

PS: Eyegirl, beautiful wedding, I wish lots of love for the 2 of you for the rest of your lives.


Genybou said...

hang on in there tiger
you can do it and you will get better. Take 1 day at the time
call me if you need anything I am always here ok


Melly said...

I'm glad to see the update. I hope once you get into the psychiatrist they're able to get you on a path to wellness for you. Good luck and stay strong. :)

~KS said...

I left a prayer for you on my blog today... I say one for you everynight. But I the thought the more people who are praying... the better :)

Hang in there. I think you're amazing :)

Ren du Braque said...

Tiens bon. Ne t'inquiète pas. Essaie d'être en paix avec toi-même et ton passé. Tu arriveras.

melifaif said...

Thanks to the wonderful spirit that is KS, consider yourself growing in followers. Never apologize for what you put on here...your TRUE friends will never leave you!!!! Keep your head....prayers are coming your way from your newest follower...