Friday, September 30, 2011

Vacation pay

I knew that this weeks pay check would be smaller than usually because I was on vacation last week. And I know that my vacations are calculated to 8% of the salary I made the previous year. Last year I only worked 7 and a half months full time.

Up to that point it was still all ok, until today. I realize that it would be the same situation next year. And I have worked only 2 months really really part time and 5 full time.

It wont be big vacations next year :(

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

3 weeks later

This afternoon I went to therapy. The last time we mutually agreed that we where to space out each appointment to every 3 weeks. SO since then my hamster has done a lot of running.

Where there a lot of changes? I dont think so.
But with the medication, I feel that I same not the same.
Yes, I am still myself, but up to this appointment I though I had lost contact with my emotions, that I was completely detached and insensitive. That no positive or negative emotions reached me. Well turns out I was wrong, that it is the voltage / intensity of my emotions that is starting to regulate itself.

Is this was it feels like to be ok / normal? I have no clue.
I also have to learn and to accept that it is normal to be scared that things are doing well when you have been used to them being bad all the time.

I have only two appointments left before the end of this therapy and before I start the second one. I am excited because this second one is the one that will affect and help me the most according to the psychologist and psychiatrist.

To be continued...

Saturday, September 24, 2011

My vacation / September

Here is a recap of my vacations:

Saturday I went to my parents house, my sister was supposed to be there for dinner, but she had car trouble. So Iwent on my own and steamed by myself against my mother. I dont remember the last time I saw her without wanting to shake her. Asides from that I introduced my dad to Facebook.

Sunday quiet day at home and a walk to enjoy the nice weather.

Monday I went to the dealership with my car to make some recalls done by the company and I read the entire evening.

Tuesday early in the morning my dad came to help me paint my kitchen and we went out for lunch (he emptied a part of his heart about my mom). In the evening did a bit of shopping.

Wednesday ( went to see a friend quickly and then to my doctors appointment and spent the entire day/evening with my godson.

ThursdayI went shopping, again, with a friend and then dinner with her. Spent the rest of the evening watching the beginning of a few series that I follow on TV.

Friday I went grocery shopping and at night I had a bunch of girls over for a clothes exchange.

Saturday I went to support a friend that was auditioning for the TV show Canada's got talent. Saw a terrorist in the subway. I ended the night talking to my sister on the phone. It's crazy how I miss her.

Today I went grocery shopping for my lunches, and read in the park near my house all while watching the firemen put out a fire in a trashcan. Tonight I made a bit of laundry and went to a friends house to drop of some clothes form the exchange and here I am. And you guys what have you been up to?

Friday, September 16, 2011

Vacation

The advantage of having been on sick leave for part of the year last and this year, is that I have 5 weeks of vacation to take before the end of 2011.
One week off every month till the end of the year...not complaining too much :P

Have a nice week!

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

When you grow up

Each child gets asked this question...

What do you want to be when you grow up?

Me, I wanted to be a meterologist or a radiologist.

And you what was your answer?

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Fishing trip

Each year for the past 4 years, I take my dad fishing.
It's the only trip he ever takes and he love it.
He turns into this little kid.
More than a week before we leave, he starts to get ready.
This year is the first time we rent a cabin.
It was gorgeous and we had the best weather possible.
On the down side, not that many fish.
In 3 days only one rainbow trout and nothing else.
But my dad's smile was all worth it.
Next year we are going back an entire week.

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Filthy

Lately I had a conversation with a lady regarding her family doctor X. This doctor X is the father of one of my past boyfriends. I remember as if it was yesterday how disgusted I was walking into his house.

From not knowing where to walk, to not knowing which dishes where clean and which weren't, from algae in the shower floor, to old used Kleenex's in the stairwell, from parrot feces all over the living room floor, ect...

How should we react with filthy people? I am not talking about messy people, but filthy people.

Monday, September 5, 2011

Christmas party

Don't ask me why, But today I started thinking about Christmas.

I was thinking about my childhood and of the big Christmas parties we used to have at my grandparents house. When I say big, I mean big. I have a large family. My mom is the 13th child of thirteen. So the first child has children that have children, that have children. We are about 70 cousins.

Ever since the grandparents passed, we see each other only in funerals or weddings. and that's it.

I want to organize a Christmas party, but I wonder if people would come. Or family is pretty spread out across the province and aging (when I think of Aunts and uncles)

Should I dare? Maybe not this Christmas but for the 2012?

Saturday, September 3, 2011

My godson borrowed my car





Thursday, September 1, 2011

September

Today for me and I am sure for many of you, September marks the end of summer.

Can you believe that not once this summer I wore my bikini?

Damn summer sucks, yay for fall!